Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Eight Weeks

Well today is Tuesday. This is my usual weigh in day for Weight Watchers. I have lost another .8 lbs this week bringing a grand total of 16.6 lbs lost in eight weeks. I thought that I would have done better than this but I guess the key is to just keep losing no matter how small. I didn't think that I had a very good week. The girls and I got together and I had this great idea to make vodka smoothies. MMMMMMMM they went down way too well. Then with the weekend throwing my eating off track i had no idea what kind of progress I was making.

Sometimes I see that my shape is changing drastically but the scale does not reflect this. Oh well upward and onward right. This is my journey that I have chosen and so far the babysteps are taking me somewhere. Next year at this time, my friend and I have a date for her birthday. She will be coming into a new decade and we plan to celebrate this along with our weight loss victory together on the tilt a whirl. A carnival ride neither of us has been able to experience in many many years. Well Here I am and I'm doing it!!!!

This is one of those times where being a loser makes you a winner.

Eight Weeks

Sunday, July 5, 2009

How Ignorant!

So you know, usually I'm pretty positive. I have a great support group around me and they all just want to help me succeed, but today I saw ignorance and boy am I angry.

Myself, my husband and my 7 year old daughter were on one of our bike rides through rundle park. We love rundle park because the ride is as easy or as challenging as you make it. Well that and it is absolutely beautiful and close to home. I truly am blessed to have such a great place nearby. Well anyway, we came across some self centered egotistical young men who decided that they needed to prove their manliness.
You know, it is tough enough to be a 300lb woman to get on a bike and ride. We don't need the snide remarks and dog howls.

These guys obviously do not like fat people ( not everyone does ) but if you want to rid the world of us, encourage us on our journey. Those remarks don't help. Now me, I am not the average person, this stuff angers me but they will not deter me since I hold my own power and refuse to give in to those types. But there are many ( and those are who I speak out for ) who would take themselves back home, open up a bag of something full of fat or sugar to try to numb this pain caused by these jerks for lack of a better word.

How many times have we let bullies rule our lives and stand in our way?? Well no more I say, it is time to get on our bikes and ride. Put on those swim suits ladies and head to the pool. Roll into those runners and hit the trails!!! We need to unite and come together and show the world that we are determined. We will not be oppressed any longer. If you don't like what you see, turn your head and keep your mouth shut!! Maybe the more we come out and do something for ourselves, the more scared these bullies will be and they will stay in their homes, become reclusive, eat to ease their pain and join us. See what we have seen. Walk a block in our shoes.

I will not take this any longer and I don't think that anyone else should. We have power in numbers. From now on I vow not to let others control my life and I hope that others feel the same. We shall rise up and triumph. This is not a power struggle, I will do well and lose because this is waht is right for me, and no way no how are these animals going to stand in my way. THIS IS MY LIFE TO LIVE MY WAY!!!!!!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Hooray, victory shall be mine!!

Oh happy day. Finally it is all coming together. After 7 weeks of ups and downs I think it is official. I have now lost 14.8 lbs on the weight watchers and a total of 30 lbs since I bought my first scale back in October.

The salt was such a key. 8.8 lbs this week alone. I know it was water and I'm happy to be rid of it. This shows me that I am on track and now I can start getting more consitent results. Well One more pound to my 5% loss. This is absolutely huge to me.

I was on a hike this evening with my "girlzz" and we were talking about how our bodies have changed and how disappointed we have become. It occurred to me that this is the most success I have had in my adult life. I have tried curves, spa lady,aerobics, Walk to fitness, Atkins diet, Susan Powter, diabetic diets,cabbage soup, all kinds of pills you name it. And all it got me was fatter, i never lost a pound and I just got bigger and bigger. I don't know what the difference is this time but I am really paying attention and learning about myself.

I do my best to make 2 aquasize classes a week along with 3 hikes. Coffee walks with my gal pals oh yeah I'm in it for the long haul. Fat is no longer an option

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Salt; Heavenly Demon

Well good evening. Interesting day I had. Had my weight watchers weigh in and meeting today. Lost 0.6 lbs in the last week. Now how can that be I asked myself, I tracked everything I ate, I watched everything so closely and exercise, holy cow, walks at coffee, 2 aquasize sessions and 3 hikes last week. I even passed on the birthday cake and ice cream. Something is not definately notright here.

So for a moment or two I felt sorry for myself pondering this dilemma and boom, it hit me. Water retention. My feet and legs are so swollen I can barely get into my shoes. I think back and what have I found this last week to snack on, 3 point bags of baked potato chips. Crackers, 14 for 4 points oh yeah, crunchy, salty heaven. Or so it appeared. Well now I see where that is going too.

So this may look on the outside as one woman's diet quest, but the reality is that I am learning so much about myself and what I need to do. I cannot help myself by going on the same track I need to make changes and take a good hard look at myself. All of these things are just indicators of where I need to go. I have decided to read the signs and follow the instructions rather than throwing them and out and trying to find my way.

Fat is no longer an option! I will keep moving and fighting until I get it right, and I guarantee, I will get it right this time. No more denial, No more games with myself. Time to get honest and do do do!!!!!!!!!

Ghandi taught passive resistance, well not me honey, this is all about active participation. I will actively participate in my life every moment of every day and make those changes necessary for me and my family.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Back on Track

Well this journey so far has been bittersweet. Many ups and downs but all learning lessons. I had a couple of set backs in regards to what I was eating and where it was taking me. Trust me when I say, KFC, don't do it in the same weekend as pizza and chinese food and etc..... These things led me to a 4.4 lb weight gain in one week. Oh man, I was heavier than when I started. What a blow to my ego. I cried the whole day. Then I sucked it up and had a good look at myself and thought, what the hell am I doing?? I want to live, this is why I started this journey. The next week I kept journaling what I was eating and really maintaining my perspective. Last Tuesday, I had lost 8.8 lbs in one week. I couldn't believe my eyes. Simply paying attention to what went into my mouth and making good choices made such a difference.

My friends are my angels. Those of you who walk with me, exercise with me and attend meetings with me are helping me take charge of my life and LIVE!!!! I hope you all know who you are and your importance, together we will conquer this battle. I have a few new friends on the trail.

I started this journey alone many months ago and was not going far. The energy built momentum, next we were 3, now I am up to 5 in 2 separate groups. This is growing and we are all in it together. Thanx all. Tomorrow there is another weigh in and I will not stick my head in the sand, rather I will return here and let you all know where I stand and how I am doing.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Let the journey begin!!!

Well here I am chronicling my journey for the entire world to see. I'm hoping that this new step will just bring me closer to my goal. Sometime accountability is just what we all need to stay on track.

My journey begins with a woman who at 38, has high blood pressure and early diabetes. I have struggled with my weight my entire life but ballooned to my highest at 330 lbs last October(maybe more but that is all my scale would register). I started a journey to health and wellness along with 2 other wonderful women from work. We decided that it was time to make some changes and together began walking our coffee breaks rather than eating them.

I am comitting my self to a year long journey, good bad or otherwise. I have joined weight watchers and after week one I have lost 2 lbs and am presently weighing 313lbs. We girls from work call our efforts Operation Get Hot and together we aquasize a minimum of 2 days per week and I am trying to add 2 more days for myself. I am doing this for those that I love and cherish so dearly, for where will my babies be without a mother???

Today I feel great; so far I have had a sucess and can ride that emotion for awhile, hoping to go for a walk tomorrow and keep my momentum high. We are celebrating my son's 20th birthday tomorrow so I will need to be extra careful of what I am putting into my mouth, I really like cake and that could be my downfall, but I will not worry about that but rejoice in my success and plan for the future ones to avoid failure.